i'm tired in my mind

that sound...they call music is comforting my loneliness
my eyes are awake to the movement in your voice
keep up the energy that covets you and i
i must be crazy to think this was the answer
the words that were used to talk to me assured
all doubt that i am more than a girl
i stare at you with admiration in my soul
you look back from that long walk out the door
i'm not dead inside
you're alive with confusion
this room is suffocating with it's white walls and open windows
baby, baby is the name you chose
like me, love me, leave me are the actions of the moment
i knew better than to keep that being they call child
deep down in my heart is where i crawl to die from that choice
your forgiveness is all i live for
i wait and wait and wait to hear those words that push me
into another thought without you
dance is another word for love
come with me to the other side and let's dance
you let go
and i'm forced to slip down the slide of pain
i'm okay, i'm alright, i'm still here
my feet are planted in this very spot so we are not far from one another
when you journey back look me up
i will always be on the lookout
for the password that will unlock the box that will release the secret
bella, bella, bella is your name for me
gone, gone, gone is my view of you
we'll meet again when oxygen is not needed
and days are not accountable
and moments are worthless
you and i are
tired in my mind
believe me when i say
i am not here, i not there i am mostly nowhere